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Monday, June 11, 2018

monsters

i'm sitting in the dark
face in my hands
shivering-
they're coming for me


i know i should get up
i should turn on the lights
i should find someone to talk to, but-
they're coming for me


so i'm sitting in the dark
face in my hands
weeping-
i know now
i see it
they've been here all along


the monsters are here


and they whisper endlessly

not good enough
useless
worthless
unloved
unwanted
unneeded
why not just die?


i'm reaching out my hands
begging for help
screaming-
they're desperate for my heart 


i know i should fight
i can't give in to their lies 
so i cover my ears and scream to block out the noise but-

the monsters are in my head

they've been here all along


and now they laugh 
and laugh 
and laugh 



because i am defeated 









Hello my lovelies!! Sorry for being so absent lately, it's been a crazyyy past few months! I promise I will be posting an explanation and update very soon! oh and I'll fix the header to have my blog name on it again just in case we all forget where we are XD
thank you for sticking with me, dears, it means the world to me. 

 love,    
esther
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8 comments:

  1. AndreaJune 11, 2018 at 12:16 PM

    Omg I love this!! :)

    Andrea //spaceshipsvampiresandsecretagents.blogspot.com/

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  2. VanessaJune 11, 2018 at 2:19 PM

    The amount of death is awesome in this. I enjoyed reading this. Also had to say THANK YOU SO MUCH for that sweet comment on my blog! <3

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    1. Esther EckstineJune 11, 2018 at 4:35 PM

      I'm so glad you liked it!! Aww you're welcome, dear! And thank YOU for commenting!! <33

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  3. miraJune 11, 2018 at 4:08 PM

    yay! it's so good to have you back, esther! also, I love your new header.
    and that poem was super cool.
    xx
    mira

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    1. Esther EckstineJune 12, 2018 at 10:12 AM

      it's good to BE back!! thanksss I rather like it myself :)
      thank you for commenting!!!! <3 <3

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  4. RaeJuly 24, 2018 at 6:02 PM

    This poem is, like, depression described in poem form. At least that's what I heard. Deep and real. And very well-written and feels-y.

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    1. Esther EckstineAugust 30, 2018 at 10:36 PM

      Thanks darling! Yes I tried to capture the essence of what I was feeling in the moment so I'm glad it conveyed well! Thank you for commentiiing!
      Also, so sorry I'm just now getting to these. I think blogger changed something on me cuz i haven't been getting notified when someone comments lately :P

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