In·de·fat·i·ga·ble (of a person or their efforts) persisting tirelessly.

Monday, June 11, 2018

monsters

i'm sitting in the dark
face in my hands
shivering-
they're coming for me


i know i should get up
i should turn on the lights
i should find someone to talk to, but-
they're coming for me


so i'm sitting in the dark
face in my hands
weeping-
i know now
i see it
they've been here all along


the monsters are here


and they whisper endlessly

not good enough
useless
worthless
unloved
unwanted
unneeded
why not just die?


i'm reaching out my hands
begging for help
screaming-
they're desperate for my heart 


i know i should fight
i can't give in to their lies 
so i cover my ears and scream to block out the noise but-

the monsters are in my head

they've been here all along


and now they laugh 
and laugh 
and laugh 



because i am defeated 









Hello my lovelies!! Sorry for being so absent lately, it's been a crazyyy past few months! I promise I will be posting an explanation and update very soon! oh and I'll fix the header to have my blog name on it again just in case we all forget where we are XD
thank you for sticking with me, dears, it means the world to me. 

 love,    
esther

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