face in my hands
shivering-
they're coming for me
i know i should get up
i should turn on the lights
i should find someone to talk to, but-
they're coming for me
so i'm sitting in the dark
face in my hands
weeping-
i know now
i see it
they've been here all along
the monsters are here
and they whisper endlessly
not good enough
useless
worthless
unloved
unwanted
unneeded
why not just die?
i'm reaching out my hands
begging for help
screaming-
they're desperate for my heart
i know i should fight
i can't give in to their lies
so i cover my ears and scream to block out the noise but-
the monsters are in my head
they've been here all along
and now they laugh
and laugh
and laugh
because i am defeated
Hello my lovelies!! Sorry for being so absent lately, it's been a crazyyy past few months! I promise I will be posting an explanation and update very soon! oh and I'll fix the header to have my blog name on it again just in case we all forget where we are XD
thank you for sticking with me, dears, it means the world to me.
love,
esther
